Tuesday, September 13, 2011

It's Just Not Fair!

There's a significant amount of whining in that title.

You know how I said I was over the morning sickness?  And that I felt better?  And that life was on the up and up?

Scratch that.  That "flu" turns out to be morning sickness back with a vengeance!  I got sick again yesterday and spent all day trying to keep something down.  At the end of the day I found that chicken enchiladas are definitely NOT anything I want coming up again.  I went to bed about 11:30 after an exhausting day and woke up again at 2:30 to more stomach pains and trips to the bathroom.  Back to bed, up at 3, 3:45, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8...   David called the doctor and we got an appointment early this morning.

Verdict.  This is not the flu.  This is me.  This is my second trimester, the honeymoon of pregnancy that I apparently don't get to experience.  I now have stronger (hopefully) medication and orders to stay hydrated 1 teaspoon of Gatorade at a time.  Since getting pregnant I have lost 10 pounds.  I kind of wish that I felt that were a plus, but right now I just feel miserable.

On the positive side I have accepted my fate.  I no longer fight it the way I did during the first trimester as it was all coming down.  The change, the life-never-being-the-same-again, the inability to work.  Now I am just accepting it. Doing what I can.  Messy house and all.  There are a few good days in the mix.  Sunday was wonderful.  Went to church the whole time, made dinner, went on walk and enjoyed the day.  That's why Monday morning was so dang discouraging, maddening, frustrating!  After today though I can either fight it or go with the flow so to speak.  It's going to beat me either way so I might as well go with it.  My paycheck is seriously suffering though.  Sigh.

So there's me.  Here I am once again.  No real way to plan things because I have no idea if I'm ever going to feel good on any certain day.  I'm so glad I felt good for Def Leppard though.  Perhaps that was one of the Lord's tender mercies.

Wish me luck my friends, wish me luck.... oh and if I should answer the door looking like death warmed over... don't judge me.  Thanks.

6 comments:

  1. I am SOOOOOO sorry, friend. This baby will be the most angelic baby on planet earth, because of how much you've gone through to have 'em :) That's the Karma, right? LOVE YOU TONS!

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  2. Oh. Lora. I'm so, SO sorry. Let me know if there is ANYTHING I can do to help!

    Maybe a daily email of the joys of only children would help... :)

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  3. Oh dang, that bites! I'm 35 pounds heavier than before I got pregnant with Brody, so be thankful!

    All I want to know...when is your appt to find out what you're having?!

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  4. I always thought potatoes tasted ok the second time around.

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  5. Karma: I'm trying the potatoes today! It's weird how the foods that set well during that first bout just don't sound all that appealing now.

    Brenda: we'll find out on the 27th of this month! I'm way excited!

    Tawnya: laughter always helps! Bring on the funny stories!

    Shari: Did I mention I'm jealous of you! Oh and for your heartburn, ask your doctor about Dexilant.. It's supposed to be a one a day cureall for heartburn. Perhaps it will help you.

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