Perspective

I'm tired of looking at things so closely. 

Too many details can be overwhelming. 

Too many hopes can be crushing. 

It takes time

 and effort

and energy

 that I don't have anymore

to dwell on things that don't really matter. 

I want to see more of the big picture. 

I want to stand back. 

Gain perspective. 

Realize that the dark spot that I've been trying to figure out

 is part of a much grander picture than I've been allowing myself to see. 

Realize that focusing on the dark spot

has hindered my ability to see the bright things around me. 

The things that give life rather than drain it.

I want to let go.

Of unrealistic expectations

irritation

 the need to "keep up".

I want to be able to breath again.

To drink from the cup of life more fully.

To love more fully.

To laugh more fully.

To create.

I want to look around me and see the good.