Wednesday, June 15, 2011

I'm feeling quite positive today

I have been absent.

Absent-minded, absent-bodied, absent in mental capacity.

I am back now.

I find myself searching for words today.  Well really all week.  And I guess if I'm going to go that far it might as well be the last two weeks.  My thoughts jumbled, my house more so.  But things are looking up.  Positive you might say.  I have been considering whether or not to "spill the beans" so to speak, but my dear friends, you have come with me so far.  How can I not include you on our journey?

I know it's not safe.  I know I may regret it in the future.  There's always the possibility that things just might not work out.  But right now there is the greater possibility that it will.  I just cannot believe that the Lord would bless us this much to not have things work out.  Our IVF process worked.  And if all goes well, we'll be getting a new little addition to our family in February of next year.  It's all very early.  Like ridiculously early.  Like no one knows this early unless they've gone this route.

It's all very surreal.  It's all very reassuring.  It's all very humbling.  I cannot tell you how much my faith has wavered and my silly worrying mind has made me such a doubter sometimes.  Yet the Lord still blesses us.  I know there's biology and all that going on, but our biology hasn't been something we have been able to rely on.  I've always believed that the Lord could "fix" us.  Make all the things that aren't working work again.  He has that power.  But for some reason or another we had to go this route.

I have watched as things have fallen into place for us.  With our home and our neighborhood and the wonderful, absolutely wonderful people that have become a part of our  lives.  Neighbors, family, friends, co-workers.  The change in insurance at David's work that has paid for majority of this process.  So many silver linings have shone around our trials, so many blessings.  So many that the burden has been incredibly light.

So today I am happy.  I am humbled.  I am grateful. 
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23 comments:

  1. tawnyaJune 15, 2011 at 8:01 AM

    I've been thinking about this all week. I can't get out of my mind that you all did "your" part. You did your work. You got the house. You started saving. You started working from home. At every step you showed how serious you were to this and did your work. And after all you could do came the blessing. It's amazing to see that promise fulfilled so well with you guys.

    Again...I'm so stinking happy. This baby is going to be so, so loved. But I'll try to make Sammy give someone else a little room! ;)

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  2. BrandonKristinJune 15, 2011 at 8:42 AM

    Enjoy this day, and be happy ABSOLUTELY! Humbled, for sure. Grateful, no doubt about it. It has been a hard road, and you have shown the Lord how important a family is to you.
    Squealing with delight for you, all while sitting down of course. I am hopeful and still praying for you. I have been wanting to call/email/facebook you asking what the status is, but I didn't want to because I know all to well how its hard when you have to say "no it didn't work" a thousand times and the wound opens uup each time, but for you YAY YAY YAY! so excited and happy for you! :) You deserve every happiness.

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  3. ShazBrazJune 15, 2011 at 8:48 AM

    So happy for you!

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  4. UnknownJune 15, 2011 at 9:59 AM

    YAY!!! Are you sure this is what you want?! Lack of sleep? Kids driving you crazy? LOL. Totally kidding! Although it's hard being a mom, it's the best too! I'm sooooo excited for you guys! And I'm glad you shared with us so early :) Love you!

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  5. J.B.June 15, 2011 at 11:30 AM

    Ah, my heart sings for you! My hopeful and excited prayers will be with you!

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  6. bythelbsJune 15, 2011 at 2:53 PM

    Yay!

    Big YAY!

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  7. Jenny Axford CookJune 15, 2011 at 4:15 PM

    I am so excited for you! You both will make incredible parents and I hope you know you deserve that blessing!!

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  8. BeccaJune 15, 2011 at 5:16 PM

    I love the title.

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  9. UnknownJune 15, 2011 at 6:37 PM

    Wait, it could twins or triplets, huh?! :)

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  10. Heather LaytonJune 15, 2011 at 9:27 PM

    Congrats and I seriously wish you the very very best! I have twin niece and nephew through IVF and what an amazing blessing to have available now days :)

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  11. rachaelJune 16, 2011 at 9:22 AM

    Hip Hip Horray!!!! I have been thinking about you all week and hoping and praying that this worked!! I am happy that you shared with us all this early, friends offer support no matter what and that is what we are here for! I admire your faith and strength even if you don't always feel like you have it. You have always been one amazing woman to me...one I want to be like! Things work out in the Lord's way that is for sure and in the end it is worth whatever road we take to get there. Happiness is being felt for you and Dave and looking forward to staying up on the progress. Love you!

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  12. LoraJune 16, 2011 at 9:30 AM

    See! Best friends ever!! and a wonderful cheering squad and please no triplets! Twins would be fine but I have it on good authority (Shari) that I will be having one and it will be girl. Apparenlty she has a gift! We'll see how it turns out! you guys are great though. Thanks for being so willing to share your support through this whole crazy thing and so much more fun to share in the joy!

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  13. AnonymousJune 16, 2011 at 10:47 AM

    Tears of joy!!! I am so excited for you! Love, Sariah

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  14. Jessica June 16, 2011 at 5:05 PM

    yay! We are praying for you still! Keep on believing! What an exciting thought though....just remember this several months down the road....it seems to take FOR-EV-ER to get through the entire pregnancy! I'm so ready to be done and still have 2 months left! haha! Best wishes to you though!

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  15. AnonymousJune 16, 2011 at 5:55 PM

    Woohoo! That's fantastic. I'm so happy for you!

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  16. grammysulliJune 16, 2011 at 7:41 PM

    I gotta get in on this conversation too!
    I've been praying and praying all the while, yet
    not daring to say the wrong things or the right things wrong. How sensitive it has all been. But I know
    beyond a shadow of a doubt that the Lord considered our prayers and accepted our fasting for this little one
    who will soon be ours. When he/she is born, will we think that it wasn't so long a wait after all? How many
    times have we had to learn that God knows best?
    If I have to learn patients, it is going to be learned
    while waiting for February.

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  17. jkaabergJune 16, 2011 at 8:07 PM

    Lora, Congrats! I was thinking about you the other day. One of my dear friends had been struggling with this same thing and they just did invitro and it worked. So I was hoping that you would be next. I hope everything goes well. I have learned that its better to have people celebrate with you along the way. So way to go for letting everyone know! :o)

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  18. LoraJune 16, 2011 at 9:44 PM

    Do you see that grammysulli comment? That's my mother in law and she's completely awesome! Thank you all again!

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  19. Lacy@uphillandsmilingJune 16, 2011 at 10:45 PM

    THIS IS THE BEST NEWS EVER!!! :) Lora, you have literally saved me this year, the first year I've met you and you have become a dear friend and have welcomed me into a circle of other wonderful women... I love you and I've been praying SO much for you guys... I am so happy for you. :) Life is good.

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  20. Adam and Shari CrawfordJune 17, 2011 at 2:45 PM

    I 'heart' you :) I'm feeling pressure about having you write out my prediction :) You're truly amazing....

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  21. GinnyJune 18, 2011 at 12:07 PM

    YEAH!!!! I'm so excited for you. You've made the biggest mile stone! and I couldn't be more happy for you. No matter what, celebrate each day and each milestone. Because of where you've been this baby will be more loved than any other in the world! We'll keep prayin' for you.

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  22. DebbieJune 20, 2011 at 8:07 PM

    Lora and David, I am beyond thrilled for you both!!! I yelled when I read it!!! You are both going to be incredible parents. I am so happy that you have shared this journey with us all. Please continue to share. I just love reading your posts! Congratulations again and take it easy!

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  23. KrystalJune 25, 2011 at 2:03 PM

    Congrats we are truly happy for you guys and know you are being blessed everyday.

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